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Hello, I was born in the town of SÈTE in the department of Hérault (34) and I grew up in Avignon. I got married at the age of 20 and my first little Great Love was born in February 1986. the second in May 1990. following a family catastrophe, life destined us a route outside our native country. We immigrated to Quebec. At the beginning my ex-husband told me ''we will stay there for a maximum of 3 years to obtain our Canadian citizenship and then we will return. This was not the case!!... I have been in Quebec for 17 years, divorced for 11 years. Single and a grandson who is my great love! I have dreamed since the beginning of doing 6 months/6 months in each country. but I haven't had opportunities yet!! I am torn between these two countries for the rest of my life. I have my parents who are aging in France and my children who want to stay in Quebec. WHERE IS MY PLACE??? This year 2018, I have to make a decision for my life, for me. I have to move!....if I stay sitting on my couch, NOTHING will happen! My parents are 80 years old and starting to have sores. I would like my children to take care of my old self. So I have to be with my people in France. I am aware that we are in Quebec. but I'm fed up with not having good friends and not finding love. My family and friends are in France. the sea is in France, the sun is in France. good food is in France!!! My grandson and my 2 children are in Quebec and it bothers me, but that's how it is!... I felt a lot of guilt for having expatriated them, in their opinion. They were small when we left France. I believed that their schooling would be better for them. But everything was the opposite. I have only experienced major challenges in Quebec and I have taken them on alone. Not easy at all. The fact remains that we get used to not having violence, theft, social insecurity. I've always had professional insecurity. In France as in Quebec. Everything I did was messed up! I already wanted to stay in France in 2013. but I returned to QC after 5 months with my dog ​​at the time. TODAY, I am afraid of returning to France. Because the lack of my children will be felt after a month. my daughter is a continuation of myself and my grandson is a novelty in life. Innocent to this day (2 years) I'm afraid of the hardness of the work and the mentality of the people. I'm going to feel even more alone in France despite the proximity of my family and friends! I'm thinking about training as a dog groomer, because I obtained a dog behaviorist certificate in 2008 in Montreal and I'm actually a mixed hairdresser. A profession where you do not yet need a diploma to practice it and to settle in France or in QC. I tell myself that this is the turning point not to be missed because my age is not going to regress and this profession will evolve. I want to live close to my hometown. so I'm looking for POSSIBILITIES!.. a little HELP?! THANKS